Amani's Lil Bio

I agree completely with this comment that was left on of 100isforever's Myspace blog by Chemical Ali. It was in response to his question about success and I was really feeling his comment he posted. I was was gonna post what I said but damn I could go on and on and on lol it was too big for me to leave as a comment. It got me in deep biography mode about me growing up so here it goes.....dim the lights!

And just like him I was left alone in the world growing up, no father, i had everyone else but was always an outcast or the weird one in the fam just because I wouldnt do or share the things they did. I was always quiet and stuck to my books and whatever was knowledgeable to me. I was the brain kid of my siblings and they wasnt tryna feel that part of me. Its just like music, fam=mainstream, me=underated. Throughout it all, it helped me to become a stronger person today and understand the greatness out of it all because without that knowledge I would be wonderin what it is for me to do. I'd probably be outside slangin, sleepin over peeps houses, staying in my moms crib begging and watchin BET all friggin day flippin back and forth from Music Choice or constantly constantly tryin to see what my friends are up to when they just may be workin or doin something productive while I sit there wonderin once more what it is to do. U just have to have that mind frame that would allow to u to say man....nothing to do...could I work...write something...draw, clean, go help out, go grocery shopping...something man. I went thru H.S. years asking myself these questions everyday until something happened. I kept quiet alot because I was around alot of negativity. My focus was completely blocking me away from parties, friends, and hanging out. I wasnt happy at all around my fam at all because I always felt that something was missing. It was prob one of the reasons some peeps including my fam looked at me strange. I needed a job bad because I wanted to get away from all this negativity. I tried to find a job my last two years of H.S. but failed to. With all the Academic Decathlon and honor-like classes I was takin, I never was able to acquire a good job at the time I needed it. My mom started becoming money hungry and wanted me to have a job right away like it comes overnite. Eventually she kicked me out while I was still in school and suddenly I'm living with my aunt. I would say even tho my aunt looked at me strangely at times to, She was the better part of my fam. I found it thru living my final year of H.S. with her that I finally have the time and space to enjoy doing what i do and be a complete nerd without the pressure of doing this and that my mom was throwin in my face. I became fascinated with developing web pages and technical related stuff all my H.S. life and had the chance to broaden my skills.



I eventually graduated and whatnot and was very ready to go to college. My mom was a big blockage for me to getting into college because she refused to even get me in college. So I found myself all alone again and realized that I really need to get a job. Anywhere would be nice...i didnt care. I did end up spending my whole summer getting a job right at the end. Money was feelin right. My auntie was proud of me but still realize that I had alot of free time on me that could have been used for school. Seeing because of my mom I couldnt go to college, I looked into some certification programs of my interest to help me better what I possess. I ended up wasting a whole year of money to it for the majority of what skills I've already acquired and and seeing that I really don't need to be in school for Web Design, I stopped that program and kinda started slackin off. My aunt wasnt liking this and threw me out and I'm back with my mom again. I ended up spending a year back with my mom promising her that since i have a job that I would pay her some rent money to stay back with her. She was fine with it. Few months later of staying with her I got a second job because the money I was giving her left me with not much in my pocket. After my year staying with her, she became money hungry mom again askin for even more money. It caused me to wanting to move away from her this time into my own place. As much as I searched and called for a place it wasnt suitable to my income. All the while doin this I started investing in my money for those few months and decided that I wanted to have a roommate to stay with. Sure enough I saved up enough money to get away as quick as I can. While I was still lookin for a cool enough roommate to move into a place with, I found myself packin up all my things in preparation without any of my fam knowing about it so that when I do find a roommate and a place, I definately wont be needing to pack anything when leaving. Sooner or later I found a roommate, which I'm still living with today, and moved out with no hesitation. I was so happy when we got a place together that I just couldn't stop celebrating with a party almost every weekend at our new place. This was all last year. This year, while I'm still workin two jobs and a place of my own along with my roommate whose now my sister to me, I'm planning to be more on my grind about my career goals and my plan to being the great web designer that I've always planned to be. While my skills may be a bit tainted from all the drama and issues I've been dealing with since leaving H.S., I plan to refresh them by sticking more closely to my books and instructors I've discovered along the way. I already can't wait to get me an iMac laptop to start my work on. I'm saving up to get that now. I've been secretly blueprinting all my ideas for the past year and so can't wait to establish and sell them. Until then, I will keep blogging and writing to u all every update that I come across and hopefully u peeps keep reading. I'd really really appreciate that and wish me well along my journey. My mission has begun.....